cold feet.

It's just a bit too odd that I get your texts and you don't get mine... unless your inbox is full? Maybe you don't want me, I don't know. Maybe you can't be bothered to change, or you may have someone else or just want to play the game so you can laugh at me at the end. I don't know, and I wish I did. Honestly, I really just feel the need for some comfort in my life. All the time it's about being on edge, not trusting, being careful who knows what and when. I hate being so emotional and drained at this time of the month. I just want someone's safe arms and kind words right now. I miss Rich so much, and he's suddenly in my dreams, my thoughts and my heart again. Anyway, my lower back hurts and I wish someone would be here to just hold me, massage me and give me some general attention and care. Meh.