I want to live, not merely survive. And I won't give up this dream of life that keeps me alive.

That looks like it could cheer me up, a giant Kit Kat. I think I'm going to make some hot chocolate, maybe get myself some birthday cake and snuggle up under the sheets. I don't want to be sick anymore, I'm too moody and down, plus it's coming to that time of the month so. I want the sore throat and headache to go away already!

My sickness and pain are pushing the ones I love the most away. It's like an outburst, it's not something that I can always control, though if I say so myself, I've been doing quite a good job of keeping it together and getting through. It's just the nights...

I've got my hot chocolate and am going to watch some Veronica Mars then The Big Bang Theory, and hopefully maybe fall asleep.