There's no point in thinking about yesterday, it will never be the same.

It's funny how when you're a kid, you want to be all grown up. I didn't realise myself that childhood was supposed to be the most happiest and fun time of your life. Now I've only got studies and a job and a family, bills and all that to look forward to. I miss innocence and not having to worry. I miss parties and fun trips out, the laughter at the silliest things, making up rude words and always getting treats and love. Cutsie love.

I actually bought myself a birthday cake. Mmm, oh how I miss the traditional birthday cake with jam and icing. So I thought to myself, why ever not? Tesco's has gotten rubbish lately, they don't have some stuff anymore. No pizza bases?! pfft. I got Pop Tarts though :D ! Strawberry flavoured, but there was only 8 for like £2.35. I need to try them though!

Hoovered, put out some new lights and am now trying to sort out some food. Preparations and such. I hope the weather gets warm and the sun peeks out again! But yeah, life is much more harder and boring... I wish I could be somewhat like Peter Pan. Not growing up, pretending to be like a kid would be fun. I just want to feel alive instead of having a sinking feeling and having to deal with daily life. Listening to Avril Lavigne and getting on with it. Another person who I grew up listening too, she inspired me by the lyrics she made, the way she dressed and spoke out loud. Plus I could relate.