The World's A Better Place When It's Upside Down.

Life is a mystery. Life is mysterious and there are lots of mysterious ways.
Yeah, i've managed to totally overuse the word "mystery" and it's forms. But it's really mindblowing that he suddenly said "I don't want to be your 'ex' anymore." It's totally out of the blue, and I'm going to remind him that I was not forcing him to tell me what I want to hear, that he's the one that has to work on things and i'll help him but he has to be honest and open. I'll even say that I just wanted to know what was holding him back from making a decision, and that I didn't even ask for an answer, so that way he can have more time to think about it if he wants. I just want him to want this as much as I do, so he'll properly work on it and talk, let me help and all.

The thing is, I haven't received any texts, he hasn't confirmed he is going to talk to me. It could just be another one of his sick, sad games. Maybe Bethany or Michelle put him up to it. He may have some Southern "chick" or be seeing Amanda for all I know. The only way to find out is if he talks later. Is that a big IF? hmmm. I hope not.

It's been another sunny and warm day. Freya's back, and she's saying it's not her week to clean (that she did it two weeks ago, meaning the week after I did.) Lucy didn't clean on her week, I suspect. But you know, it's kind of getting silly/ridiculous now. Someone should take responsibility, and no, it's not going to be me because I cleaned up the week I was supposed to, left/went away for a week, and came back to that mess! It's disgusting and someone needs to get a guy in here to help with the overflowing trash and all. It's starting to smell and attract flies too! Ugh. The atmosphere is kinda tense, annoyed. So you know..

Anyways, I've missed my mum's phone call twice today. Maybe I should ring her back, I don't know. I've still got dishes to clean up and stuff, but going into the kitchen isn't appealing at all. Can't believe i've only got a week left here, I don't know what to doooo!! One day, I will learn how to surf. I'll take those damn waves as good as they get. You know it's what I was meant to live for, that is what my life's supposed to be about. Not being stuck here. I want to be out there, on a beach. By the ocean, having fun.

Ahh..