The Land Of The Oz

Three weeks on the other side of the world. It sounds cool, i'll get to see things I've wanted to see and experience since I was a kid and all. I hope my parents don't argue so much and it all turns out fine. What i'm not so okay with is what comes after I get back. It's scary, and it makes me feel like running away in the outback somewhere so I never have to return. It's okay though, i'm so happy that I can belong with him and that he loves me that much. I'm glad he does. So I guess I should continue with the packing and such, and i'll be posting when I'm back.

Beat Again.

I was looking at pictures and video of Canada '06 the other day, I wish I was back there. It's so breathtakingly amazing and free.

:(

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NOW.

I want freedom and I want it now!

The warm and inviting Med. please.

Movies

Coraline

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Yes Man.

cold feet.

It's just a bit too odd that I get your texts and you don't get mine... unless your inbox is full? Maybe you don't want me, I don't know. Maybe you can't be bothered to change, or you may have someone else or just want to play the game so you can laugh at me at the end. I don't know, and I wish I did. Honestly, I really just feel the need for some comfort in my life. All the time it's about being on edge, not trusting, being careful who knows what and when. I hate being so emotional and drained at this time of the month. I just want someone's safe arms and kind words right now. I miss Rich so much, and he's suddenly in my dreams, my thoughts and my heart again. Anyway, my lower back hurts and I wish someone would be here to just hold me, massage me and give me some general attention and care. Meh.

Always Love.

Beautiful beat get me out of this mess
Beautiful beat lift me up from distress.

i love nada surf.

I just hope my aunt and jayden and maybe my uncle don't arrive tonight. and i wish he would stop avoiding talking to me. he hasn't shown me things will be different, he hasn't reciprocated the gesture of the picture I gave him when he said he would. Plus he's not changed, i can tell. Hasn't really given me much time or thought, so basically I'm giving up on him now but not letting him know just yet. He's a no gooder and I hope he always remains sad, pathetic and alone for the rest of his life because he doesn't deserve any more.

like an owl in a cage.

I want to be free.